why, it's always like that??

when i need someone to talk to , there is noone around.
and now i feel like some creapster, writting blog noone will ever read.
talking to myself.
peace out.

reminder to myself.
"GET NEW FRIENDS"

:D :D actually it's not so bad. i just feel weird today. tonight or whatever part of a day it is.

Today, yes, today is special.

it's the first winter day with snow. I woke up and it was all white. Earth was white, and so i hoped my soul would get.
I fell an urge to get rid of some part of me . Some annoying par of me.
I want it to atleast get white, like snow.

It's just crapy weir emotion... well actually no emotions.
Erase.
Erase me please.
clean.

away.

ehhh... im just confused.

it seems like friendship is the most selfish thing in the world. if there is true and clean friendship at all. if you feel good.. there will always be someone around you but when it's the down time.. not always there will be someone to carry you out of there. And even sometimes when lots of people are around you , you feel like you are the only one there? that's how i feel.. and i try to hide it from myself but i cant. damn it's so confusing.

Im just glad… Continue