Hey gabby!!!! So nice to hear from you!!! Hows it going!?

Wow, It's kinda the same here I mean I don't really have any friends anymore and I'm more shy and people def give me weird looks probably for the way I look and dress. I have to be honest I laughed when I read some of this because I was like "I really do wonder what they are thinking" But by the way you put it it kinda sounded like they were thinking "shes different let's all give her weird looks!!!" But don't worry I bet it will get better and maybe people will start to get the memo from you that they aren't being judged on what they wear. So anyways, My life is pretty crazy. We're trying to find a new house. Hopefully one we can rent, like a condo, but we would need a basement where my brother (now he's in college) can live So I think our plan is to rent a house until he goes to Chicago next school year then we can get a condo. I hate how it's becoming harder for me to trust people because of all of my horrible friendships in the past. It's like...there are no groups at my school that I fit into. So now I'm just hanging out with mild friends who don't talk to each other at lunch, don't gossip, and don't necessarily like music. Its killing me on the inside because I feel like I will never find friends no matter how hard I try. I also hate when I KNOW I started a trend (for instance: the happy llama, sad llama thing) and other people are doubting me. This recently happened when I hears Eileen talking about The Ready Set (who I have liked ever since 2008) and I told them I liked him too and they were like "Do you even know who he is?" I'm like "Bitch you don't know me!" Anyways sorry to go off into a rant. Yeah, I like Alternative, Rock, Techno, and Indie. BTW My mom works with the mom of the drummer of Story Of The Year so I got my CD signed and I have a picture of him laying next to a kangaroo. :)

Sorry I'm getting back to you so late, I had a party to go to yesterday. Yeah I'm pretty sure that (I'm just using this as an example) if I ever told someone like say, Stephanie that I was...idk...cutting, lets just use that (not that I am), She would probably do nothing. I mean, That's what happened to Hale, nobody did anything. At least Hale is gone (she moved too). I'm kinda happy she's gone because she was a total bitch to me after all of the nice things I did for her. like, halfway through summer she sends me a text telling me that (get this...) I hated HER because I changed my icon from the one she made me (blue faced, constipated look, crappy writing that said "cece") to the one that stephanie made me that was my enitials with a heart that changed to a guitar. she was so angry that she made a rant about it and then stated that my band and alex were fake. All i could think when I read it was "this girl is making a fool of herself" then I read the comments...PEOPLE WHO DIDN"T EVEN KNOW HER WERE CHEERING HER ON AND GIVING HER SUPPORT. then I was like "this is why people like the internet" . Anyways I really miss you here. If you were here I would have at least one real friend. I'm not lying.
<3 you muchies!!!!

Now I'm the one who's getting back to you so late! Sorry! I know I'm such a bitch!!! NO ONE LISTENS TO ALTERNATIVE HERE TOO!!! I mean on my buss EVERYONE was belting out Rap songs and (get this...) California girls! BTW Stephanie is a real big bitch now. Like, she got really mean. Like, when we were playing Fleetball I was on her team and first thing she does is get us together in a group and say "I am the soviet leader of this team and you will listen to me" and then I asked why we had to have a 'leader' and she said "Because I am the most experienced at football" I'm like you're mean dude. Anyways, I do have some friends but they are just mild friends... like I'm not feeling the connection. And I know that If I stop talking (which is what I want to do) then like ellie E or maddy will get worried or something. and Maddy and Ellie are kinda...kidish?...I guess... Just not my "style" they are kinda like the innocent. They are afraid to go into Hot Topic so I don't know what I;m going to do for my birthday because I WANT to invite them (to the mall for my birthday) but they will want to spend the whole time in the book store or some other boring stores. I'm so messed up. And none of the guys here are cute. its like "ok I have seen you 2-3 years I'm kinda sick of your face now and I def don't want to take THAT on a date" I just want someone to hug me. Thats all I want right now. I miss all of my old friends. Thinking about it makes me cry about how I just wish (you specifically because you are awesome) to be here. On the bright side I'm a straight A student because of how antisocial I am. whop-de-freakin-doo.
I miss you! <3
P.S. I will get a picture uploaded soon! and I;m trying to get in touch with josh so I can get like, backstage passes or something. too bad no one at my school knows who Story Of The Year is...

Dude my birthday is on the 3rd so I want to go down there so we can get wasted lolz. Yeah I wear brands like Glamour Kills, sosohappy, and like, band tshirts from Hot Topic. I think its funny how a lot of people keep asking other people (like, they won't ask me) if I have a facebook. I'm like..."no why?" BTW I don't think I ever told you about this but during the summer I was at a party with kids I used to go to school with and this guy came up to me and says "hey, I found you on facebook" And I was like "I don't have a facebook" and then his friends ran up to him and yelled "BURNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!" I just thought it was really funny that other people assume that like, everyone has a facebook. It would be so awesome if you came back here! I would keep you at my house and then I would take you to school in my backpack and keep you there.... then we would go shopping.... jk ;). we can wear makeup together. I know I wear it almost everyday but what sucks is that it fades off my face. it sucks. I <3 You!!!