miss my lover

fucked up friends

etc.

just no more getting drunk or drugs. looking up to a bright future, finally outta that fucking high school i dreaded so much.. home schooled as of.

now all it is, keeping my relationship good, becoming a better person and trying my best to make people happy, and that includes myself.. 

havent been on my pills

surviving.

life is supposed to be a bowl of cereal by a sunny window and your mother ironing your new dress for school in the next room.. wind in the trees & birds singing..

this morning i saw what i always used to see in corey

colton made my day though and i love him, and i know that corey is a different person but its just so hard to see it..

maybe i just need to get used to the way things are now

future is blossoming. i just need to wake up and smell the flowers,

today was a good day though i'm happy about who i am and ive decided on an earlier bed time lol

just give me summer!!…

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Pushing up daisies from a vintage grave
taking caution in feeling so bright in the morning
cos the word relapse haunts rememberance
and reveries are undesired
the hope in your brown eyes revive
the luminary charm of my antiquated nature
overwrought by your presence
and faithful in your name
keep me in your providence
and let it be written in the stars

everything today was just kind of fucked up thanks to last quarter

guess i sacrificed honors to flunk quarter 2.. now on quarter 3... i must make an influence immediately,

been writing letters to the guy of my dreams in my agenda book..

signing up for ballet again on friday, starting to learn french and starting to bake again

finding out who i am.

today sucked..

love you grimlin <3…

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so as i decide and pick at what i want to do more and more i figure out what i need to do to accomplish that future goal of being a master pastry chef that travels the world, has a beautiful house in greece..

basically all i want to do is expand my horizons & live life like theres no tomorrow..

education gives me the world apparently ?

so I'll need to learn french, spanish and italian, bake almost every week of my life and at the same time balance a boyfriend and a clean… Continue

FUCK SPORTS. I want to be a pastry chef, that means art, culinary science academy & french class not baseball.. i don't know why my mom insists on this shit. i might as well do dance so she's not up my ass about it. i don't have the time. i need a job and i'm tired of pointless classes.. am i the only motherfucker with a brain? I pray to god that i just get to california sooner with colton ♥ I just have to stay awake.. just keep going.…



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