Stop caring so much about me. I know my limits and I know what I am. I don’t need help want help or get help and it’s not going to change my mind. Leave. Say good night, good bye, because your words aren’t going through to me. You don’t know what it’s like so you can’t understand the why the how and the who behind the what. There is no forever yet, maybe it won’t end but someday I hope it will. I’ve tried..I’ve tried so damned hard. Give up on me…that’s what I’m used to. I’m just the one who…

well today i slipped up again. almost a whole month clean but i screwed it up.

HOLY SHIT I'M SO EXCITED FOR ITT!!!!! haha. i'm seeing all of them on july eighth, already got a ticket and i'm really happy!! :D

Endlessness,

You scare me more than death.

When I think of a never ending thing

I am frightened;

How can anything live

in a timeless

forever going

place?

Time is a friend of mine

and losing it is frightening.

Everything would stay

just as it is

and that is not how I like things

for everything now seems plain and dull

and one day

I want it to be different

but

if everything is…