Baby c .

i live for me , i'm done trying to live up to your expectations .
im not like everyone else , you will learn quickly .
thiscityispaperthin .
i live in a world that is not reality .
my world is made of romantic innovations ,
and introverted fantasies .

i fear the in the long run , statistics will prove me to be a terrible dissapointment .
society forces me to supress all personal goals and desires .
i want to believe that as i grow , eliminate , and educate that my fears will slowly melt , and disolve away .
i fear that as i grow i will loose apreciation for all that i have come to enjoy , and believe in .
i tend to drift into mind , and find peace and beauty , love , a sence of well being .
the most difficult thing i have to deal with at this time , is the process of finding my passion .
i am on a slow winding road to find my true calling .
but reflections of my youth say that the older i grow , the more value i find .
most days i feel in a hurry , i usually have nowhere of importance to be .
i am known to miss calls , and make plans to cancel them .
subsequently my fantasies and visions lead to bad decision making .

society creates anxiety , and butterfly feeling in my belly .
not those that might come to mind ,
not addiction , isolation , aloofness , and judgemental thoughts .
in water , i become beautiful .
i dont have any wild talents, and i dont have millions of dollars .
i know what i want in live , and im desprate to make them happen .
i let everything get to me , and i always allow my brain to work overtime , without any pay increases .
im not afraid to let people know , and i think about what i say before they slip past the gates that are my lips .
and i take time to do what noone else does anymore , i care .

im artsy , i read alot to gain useless information , that i will always take my time to fill you in on .
i usually am always enthralled and taken over by small passage ways of light .
im calm , like wind that blows through lenky trees , ones that have been warn thin .
i dont take the time to desipher why the people who hate me do , i guess im not their cup of tea .
i love long kisses , though they are rare .

i like the feeling of being held , it makes me feel stronger , powerful .
hidden meanings are like a playground for my mind , ever growing .
if i could live forever , traveling from place to place , i would be forever happy .
i hold grudges , it takes alot for me to forgive and i never forget .


blood and gore make me smile huge , i have sick fantasies .
though its hard to see what im becoming through all the vines and memories , i like her .
i have plans made , and i am working harder on making them a reality than anything .
i like being single , i like having space , but im not fond of lonliesness .
i write to keep my mind moving , i hate staying in one spot for too long .
i talk alot , and usually about somthing that is only important or meaningful to me .
i have a knack of saying im sorry alot , sorry .
would you be a nerdfighterlike with me ?