So I've never written a journal on here before so I thought I'd give it ago, and what better subject than that of the year about to pass.

But before I start, I must say this is my second attempt. I spent about and hour and a half writting this journal and my brother desperatly needed to get on the computer, So I said ok just don't close that window! What did he do? He closed it and I lost all of my writting, so for the second time here I go!

My 2007 didn't start in a glamourous way, I didn't go to an amazing party and at midnight have some gorgeous guy kiss me. Actually quite the opposite, I spent the first moments of 2007 alone in my room getting drunk and watching Pirates of the Carribean. Amazing huh?

As the year progressed I found myself binge listening to my already favourite band, The Academy Is... They made me start to realise things like my worth and how I should be living my life, they made me realise that I was a boring, ugly, stupid, and a pushover that needed to get a life.

As I tried my best to be something new I happened upon something that devistated my family, some bad things happened and I'd rather not go into detail. I can just say that to some '08 is a blessing.?

Around the same time the one thing I could enjoy was an MCR gig, which gave me hope and showed me that there were things in life to look forward to.

In an attempt to have fun and get on with life my sister invited me to a charity party which was a cowboys and Idians fancy dress. It was a chance to me to prove myself as a older looking 15 year old and get served alcohol and have fun. The bubble burst though because as soon as I arrived I bumped into all my school teachers. Embarressment is not the word, I could have died. I soon got over it and soon got drunk whether the teachers were there or not. My maths teacher did catch me with an alcopop in my hand but she got completly fucked so couldnt say anything against me. It was a fun night and on the way home some random drunk told me I was beautiful which is as always flattering, even if he was old and drunk :P

Summer came quick and new experience's and fun were to be had, like our town fair which wasn't as fun as it should have been. Certain people will alway ruin things for you. Tip: If your friends start to act like a bunch of fifty year olds and tell you your imature, stop being friends with them. And another thing there's no point in dressing up to look nice someone will always say something to put you down.

August quickly became my favourite month when I attened a gig called Decaydance. The line up AMAZING. Cobra starship, The Academy Is..., Gym class heroes, Panic! at the disco, and last but not least Fall out boy. It was an amazing day, William Beckett blew me a kiss, Alex suarez took a group picture of us, I saw Gabe, Travis, Andy and Patrick up close, sadly not to talk to. Ryan Ross from Panic! gave us a bowl of soup (which was delicious) he promised he hadn't touched it but I told him that was no good which I think scared him a little. We hung out and spoke with this hench guy which we later realised was a body guard for the bands and a found pictures of him with Brendon asleep on him. Then In the distance I noticed Mike Carden aproach and mangaged to coax him over to me, he is a true gentleman and really sweet, we hugged and chatted for a while untill he had to leave and we had to get into the gig. We made it in time for The Academy Is's set to start and the rest of the night was amazing.

That night on the way home a man on the train started to chat me up, although he was a very drunken man It was still flattering. What's not flattering is that I only ever get chatted up by the older drunker man, but at least I'm starting to realise I'm not completely repulisve.

September brought my birthday and I turned the not so sweet 16, none the less it was fun, and the saturday following I went out and got my belly button pierced as did a friend of mine (button buddies).

Now I had started to grow confidence in my life and became a lot more bolder. A lot of parties followed at a friends house, one where I got a little to drunk and thought it a good idea to give my friend a piggy back. Tip 2: never give piggy backs when your drunk!

October sent me to crete on the first holiday i've had in about 9 years. Crete is a lovely place but pay anything less than a fortune for accomodation and you'll be stuck in?a hovel like I was. Once you look passed the cockroaches and dirty walls, there's a lot of fun to be had trust me. Every night was an adventure and the place's to eat were amazing. Being the lucky person I am and looking older for my age I never had an alcohol free day. The beaches were gorgeous and the sun was always in the sky. We went on a boat trip to an Island where I enjoyed jumping from the boat and pushing my fears aside. Near enough to the last day of our holiday we stopped off in a club called Tiger Tiger, which happily fed us free cocktails, and I was scarily chatted up by a twenty something Navy boy (yet again the older ones, none ever my age). Being nervous and never been aproached like that before I used a lot of? "maybe's" and embarressed myself. He was sweet and asked me to dance and offerd to buy me a drink but, I just didn't fancy him lol. 1. his hair wasn't long enough and 2. his pant's wern't tight enough lol. That holiday opened alot of opertunities for me and I had a lot of fun. One thing I did which I enjoyed a lot was hold a snake and now I just want one!!

November was hard for me my friends messed me about and I got rather stressed. Nevertheless I went and saw MCR for the second time and had a blast, they always blow me away. Not long after this I got brave and let my sister cut my hair, Best idea in a long time, a hair cut can make anyone hot!!

December, well it brought me stress and tears when I had my mock GCSE's, but luckily The Adamey Is... got me though. And with Christmas handing me?everything I need for the?new year, I couldn't think of a better time to start something new.

So that's basically my year's story up to now with me writing this journal, "Why didn't you?just write a fucking?biography you stupid cow?" you may ask, but that would have taken far too long. So from 2007-8 I've changed alot and am starting to realise i'm not that boring, I'm not that ugly, I'm not that stupid and I'm not a pushover. Things that were won't ever be again, I've changed and I like it.

Hope all you guys have an amazing 08 xxxx