Soda Sundays Nineteen

Nostalgia & Sorrow, Happiness and Sadness, hi's low, and everything in between. Thats the kinda week its been.

Though we've had some amazing things happen this week we've also had our share of troubles but more importantly I'm reminding myself today how nice it is to feel at all. I mean I remember those darkest horrid times in my life where I physically couldn't imagine making it any longer, but it was at those moments where I'd laugh at say, "fuck it, at least I'm alive to feel wretched"

where's this coming from? who knows. I think autumn brings out the true longing inside me, I sometime's feel lonely and off for no reason during the winter months. it's so hysterical that we've actually created a disease for this called "SAD" for seasonal affective disorder, it's a complete crock of shit but you have to admit its funny. Maybe I have SAD and restless leg syndrom, more likely I'm just a songwriter who is a hint more sensitive than most. I remember being in high school when this time of year would come, I always got butterflies in my stomach, like someone was about to break my heart, or some crazy rampant rumor was going to destroy my remaining days being a "cool kid" but nothing ever seemed to come from it. a few years later I turned all of that reminiscence into "The Best Years Of Our Lives" which sprinkled in a nice touch of heartbreak after college came in like a wave and swept away everything and everyone I knew and left me by myself.

k, that's enough depressing shit! Cinnamon, our wonderful lil baby girl whose gotten us ALL the way through (some time's with some troubles other times with pure joy) will be retiring from the tour tomorrow. She just can't handle the full ET rock so the bus company is going to send in some reinforcement in the form of a new bus(and driver actually). We're on our 4th driver in 3 weeks now, and while for legal reasons I don't want to get into the most recent escapade I'll say that it involves a driver going MIA, crack, prostitutes, Hey Monday, and Hawaii. I'm just glad I got my Sirius Subscription back that I'd bought him as a gift. Lesson learned HARDCORE, you definitely don't know people as well as you think you do.....

toronto was awesome, ate my Swiss Chalet, Tim Horton's coffee, and wandered near my old Queen Street stomping grounds where I first got my start with Avril and Co. I remember going to hang at The Rivoli with the Sum41 guys when I was just a weee little baby pretending I knew how to be a music director.

New York was even BETTER(despite our missing driver). the one opinion I actually care about reported "it was fucking amazing, you killed it" so I feel pretty good for the moment. It also meant a lot that a few pretty heavy hitting music industry people who don't work with me came out to just support. The A&R guy who signed me 5 years ago(but has since left WBR), a few other wonderfully talented A&R execs who I work with as a writer, and the head of my non artist publishing company all came out. It was ironic having all of these people come to show their support since they're almost all not vested in my artist career. It felt real, and it felt nice. That being said, those who stand to make the most of my exploits were sharing a similar attendance streak with our former driver and thus nowhere to be found.

What am I ranting about? Nothing really, this tour, although only halfway through has been exponentially important because it's REALLY shown me the most amazing thing in the world. in terms of my music and my artistic life, NOTHING ELSE fucking matters besides ME and YOU. Oh, I'm still taking over the world, and I'm still going to be the biggest artist in the world, but I feel like YOU guys are gonna do it ALL and we don't need anyone else. I'm so infinitely lucky to have so many amazing people around me that are so supportive, that's the kinda shit you can't buy and when we're on top(probably very shortly) it's gonna be a whole lot of fun because we'll all have earned it.

Thanks for making all of these shows so amazing! I love you all so much.
uStream with a little SayNow live coming up next!!!!!!! kickkkkkkk ASSSSSSSSS

Evan