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Soda Sundays Twenty Six

It's been quite possibly one of the most incredible weeks of my entire life. It feels like this week has been a year long, so much has happened, so much has changed. For anyone whose ever feeling down in any way shape or form just do me a favor, read my last blog's tone of semi melancholy hopelessness and this week's tone of laughing at all of it and understand that if you keep your head up things will turn around.

I made a few minor changes inside myself last week and its already changed my entire life. There are no conclusions to draw, lessons to teach, or even a complete sense of understanding where I'm at or what I'm doing but i know this: follow your heart always.

Lemme sidetrack for a moment to give you some exciting news via our wonderful ever pending record! "Pumpkin Pie" & "Best Years Of Our Lives" couldn't have gotten a better reception from Warner and are now slated to be mixed this week or next. That obviously marks a huge turning point in the completion of those songs and I couldn't be happier about how excited people are. On TOP of that I nervously sent my manager "Starbucks Girl" (he's my musical confidant) and with the exception of a lyrical tweak or two we're both feeling pretty fucking good about it. I'm gonna need to get into the studio with a proper producer for that one since it's a little out of my area of expertise production wise but I'm fairly certain that song will be #1 at some point in the near future. Lastly, dunno about which songs are definitely going and definitely staying other than "Love/Hate" is certainly not on. I'd say also that "Waiting" is most likely not gonna make the cut but whether or not "Better Than You" or "I Love The Both Of You" make it will depend on what ultimately makes the record the best. I just need to take a week and listen to everything to gain some perspective.

I've been writing poems, yes thats right. me. I've never written poetry before. I've always respected those poets who are able to make their words so emotional, so powerful that it becomes more than a poem, its more like a incredible song without music. I guess because of my lyrical self consciousness and my lack of familiarity with tons of poetry I've always gone away from it but a little muse sprinkled some fairy dust on me and I've been writing non-stop. Most of them are probably horrible, but it's felt nice to just write write write, music, poems, blogs, tidbits anything.... all without some forced notion of trying to make a hit or something, and just get shit off my chest. It's probably ironic that I found my old lyric book from right after Spinfire today. reading those lyrics(some of which were embarrassingly horrid) reminded me of what it was like to write out of pure necessity. I wrote those songs because i HAD to, the words were frantic, like cries to a good friend. And not that I've been uninspired during this record, I mean, every song means the world to me inside and out but I've definitely been on a good 6-8 month drought of real stomach churning emotion and it's nice to have it back.

I just got sobered from that high with a quick thought of reality. does that happen to you as well? like, a quick thought, something you know you'll face tomorrow hits ya and it just pushes on a button that feels bad. then it passes. whatever.

I went to new york for 2 nights on a whim. A friend of mine had never been and I had 2 days off so I said "fuck it, let's go". It was one of the more enjoyable 48hrs I've had as the doc says "you work really hard, you should enjoy it!" look, I'm not gonna start buying rolex's and caviar on my credit cards but I don't want to wait anymore for when I'm going to really start indulging in the fruits of my labors. I think everyone should do that. I never thought there was a balance, or a need for a balance, a place in between being cautious & strategic vs being directionless & avoiding reality, but ..this place, does exist, and albeit very small and particular, can be better than all of your wildest dreams combined.

It was while standing on top of 30 Rockefeller Plaza (the building they film SNL in etc...) that I was struck with a "yea, dude, this is awesome...do this kind of shit more" so I guess standby for more twitter adventures detailing my escapades to come.....

Bagels and Coffee are so much better in NYC. I don't know why, I don't want to know why, I just know its true. Walk into any corner shop, order a cup of coffee and it'll trump the best cup you'll ever get at Starbucks, Peet's & Dunkin Donuts(although Dunkin kills!)

What else. Hmm.. back to work tomorrow morning, gotta earn myself another runaway. I'll be tweeting, blogging, and nagging you all week with the updates on the album, mixing, songs etc.... The rest is cake, all good, all fun.

It's time for me to retire to my last few hours of perfectdom before I return to reality. whether or not I'm able to get back here remains unseen but I'm actually hopeful and while cautiously optimistic I hope it's much sooner than later. It's nice in here, and damn the coffee is good.

Love,
Evan