I am soooooooo jealous of those people that can pull off scene hair. They are so beautiful and like perfect and everything. I wish I could do it but I feel like just cuz not everything I own is like "goth" or "emo" or whatever, I can't wear it. i mean, I'm definitley not preppy or "Omg, Hollister is Awesome and Pacsun is soooooo cool.", but still....okay.... well i KINDA like Pacsun. Whatever. I just hate howi have to fit under a certain category... evn though it is like ttally aginst what I stand for. Does that even make sense? It just annoys me, and I felt safe writing it here cuz nobody i no is on here..... Omg btw, I really hope I win that contest with a shirt signed by Pete! Omg, even tho I only no him from his songs or the internet(which means I have no clue who he really is), I am in love with him. I feel soooooo weird talking about Pete as if I know him, but I can't help but write a few comments on his blog........ every once in a while......every day.... everytime I get on the internet.....O_o Ha. I also feel really pathetic for writing this whole thing. It's not my fault evryone hates me and nobody wants to text me! jk *cuts self* jk. Actually, nevermind, cutting isn't funny. But.... yeah.... I think I'm ADD. And I know everybody says that but I think I really am, because re-reading this, nothing seems to really blend together, and all I can separate my thoughts by are little dots......OMG LIKE THAT! I din't even tink about it, even right after typing that sentence. Odd. Okay, I'm afraid I'm about to say something even more embarrassing than usual so bye. :)

Yeah so I edited this when I had a clear head. Can you believe it was even more ridiculous before? Ok, so now I'm on Adderall and I'm a completly different person. It's really wierd looking back on things you say and none of it making sense. I really hope it's for the better. I am really scared, to be completely honest. I don't want to lose myself, because I'm really all I've got.

:)